Autumn in the Crystal Garden
(Johan Bengtsson)
The frost is covering the crystal garden
Inside every frozen flower rests a soul
I walk the paths, I’m wounded, scarred and
The well’s become an endless hole
This spring your very spirit blossomed
And you were growing wings to fly
You were sleeping on a bed of cotton
And it was from happiness you cried
But Autumn came and the forest withered
And the garden was slowly turning blind
You walked the paths and in a whisper
Begged the flowers to stay alive
And here we are, you stayed in the chill
Of the night in the garden of snow
You didn’t have to follow my will
And I didn’t have to let you go
You froze that night on the lakeside
Trying to water the plants with tears
You froze that night on the lakeside
Denying your overwhelming fears
And I watched you from my tower
I saw you moving around
And all the time the garden’s bower
Dropped its leaves to the ground
When Autumn came and the forest withered
Your senses where slowly turing blind
You told me that you couldn’t stay here
And maybe I just was too kind
For I let you do as you wanted to
And you packed your bags to leave
Then you changed your mind ’bout what to do
And you froze to death that eve
I buried you myself
Let you rest aside the lake
I thought about you moving around
And climbing up the stairs
When I started on this song
I thought it was written for you
But the longer it goes on
The more I feel that I was wrong
This is not at all about you
It’s all about me and my life
How I watch everyone from my tower
It’s a way for me to stay alive
Yes, I watched you from my tower
Feeling I was on another plane
That you would never understand me
And my choice was the only way
But the loneliness I did acclaim
Was the prize I just had to pay
For never seeing that you climbed the stairs
To save me from myself
But I never let you in
I never let you up into the tower
I never let you in
I never let you in
Oh, why did I ever let you go?
Credits:
Johan Bengtsson (vocals, piano, keyboard and programming)
Anders Bengtsson (guitar)